I took down The Ass List with a heavy heart, but it is no longer who I identify myself as any more. I have grown and matured. I still meet asses and am sure that will happen for the rest of my life, but I am tired of rehashing the past. I can't change anything I have done in the past. I can offer an apology and truely mean it. I can only change who I am and how I act/react to things that happen now in the present. My life is changing and I have to change with it. I must learn from the past in order to keep from repeating it over and over as that is a sure sign of insanity and I am by no means insane.

 I am learning to like me, warts and all. I am losing weight again. I am down almost 38 pounds in the past 4.5 weeks. I have lost an amazing 69.4 pounds since my brain surgery last April. I am the smallest I have been in so long and yet I still have so much more to lose, but I am doing it.

 I have started working out again and am enjoying the feeling I get from all that adrenaline flowing through my body. I have missed it for sure. I will be spending more time at the gym and more time at the park enjoying the sun and being out of the house. I will also be spending more time doing things with them. We have some major plans on cleaning up the yard. It has sadly been neglected and looks like white trash lives here. It will have to wait until two weekends from now though as my work schedule will not allow me to do it any sooner.

Monkey has her play next weekend. She's really excited and from what I have seen it's going to be amazing. She is turning out to be quite the singer and actor. To be honest, she has been a character since birth! You have to love her though. She's just that darn cute!

Lizard has volleyball tryouts and lord help us if she doesn't make it this year. She seriously needs to work on her self confidence though. She will do so much better if she believes in herself as much as I do!

Bubba is acing Spanish. I swear it's in the genes! LOL I took it for two years and barely passed. He is making 109's on tests. He tells me this evening before going to bed, "Te Amo". I love him too!

School for me is going on. Not really fond of the format, but it allows me to not have to leave the house and be around the kids while attaining my second degree. So that is BONUS!

So this is my life for this moment in time. It's being reconstructed daily.